Life isn’t always great I can’t remember the last time I had a decent meal. And if it was recently before that I haven’t had a decent meal in months. I’m not trying to starve myself on purpose. But I don’t have it like that. And all I have is a place to stay I can’t work Cus my school hour r dead in the afternoon an no job will hire me for 4 hours. What do I do and when will life get better?! I can’t take it anymore family, relationships, friendships, life.. I love life it’s beautiful I want to live it. So if I’m askin for one thing and one thing only it would be for god to bless me , just a little bit for a little while I need it. And promise I won’t take advantage of it.
I’m damaged goods :(
Mentally -___-
Is family really family
Sometimes I wonder , I consider most of my friends family. Because my family is so haywire and crazy. The worst thing to do is live in a family building. My grandma seen me discipline my son an she went to go tell on me so I went to the room to tell my mom why I hit him. Even tho I shouldn’t give any reason then that’s whn my grandma started talking shunt about me and trying to hit me and throw stuff at me mind u this is a 60 something year old woman that has had multiple strokes. I couldn’t help but scream at her not to touch me and that he’s my son and try to explain why I hit him. She said she was going to call the cops on me . She always does that I got slapped when I was pregnant by my brother and she called the cops on me!!!! Wtf!!! I will never forget that. Whatever back to the story then I’m lookin for my uncle to call him over and calm her down as soon as I see my uncle he starts screaming at me to shut up and have respect. At that point I’m just trying to explain what happened he didnt want to hear nothin so I started tellin him I’m not shutting up and he’s not my father and to shut the fuck up. Then my grandma starts screaming for nothin just so neighbors hear her and call the cops. Then I feel so bad for my mom Cus she’s tellin her
Mother hit me ( trying to defend me) my mom always gets put in the middle then talked about how she didn’t raise her kids right then my grandma curses me out like I’m a piece of shit and a puta and every bad Spanish word out there then my uncle starts pushin me I’m a fighter ur not going to slam a door in
My face so I pushed that shit! I’m not the wrong one and I get treated like I am . I cant get a word in. I can’t live my life without hiding things from them out of respect I can’t raise my child normally. When I was prego and my bro hit me my brother disappeared up stairs in his crib while I had to put up with my uncle chokin me and my grandma swingin at me 6 months pregnant!!! I was in my hallway trying to get out until my grandma put me in her bathroom ti she called the cops and they came but they found out my age and told her u can’t keep her here she is grown. If it wasn’t for the cops man I would have had a miscarriage
Wow this is the guy I been talkin too…and he tells me I’ve been thinkin about u that’s not good.. Why are men sooo stupid!!!!!!!
(via pussysauce)
This sweet guy ive been thinkin about lately he gives me butterflies :}
So me and this guy have a some history. My man doesn’t know we messed around. But we only had sex 1 time and it wasn’t good we were drunk young whatever we always had this love for eachother he always hugged me when he sees me and always made me smile. I miss him soo much he was like my best friend. But his problem was woman. He had a lot of girls brought most of em over to my house he’s flirt with me when they were around. Let’s just say he was a hoe so I never dated him. But I been thinkin about how’s he been so I wrote to him and he told me all these feelings on how he wouldn’t hurt me he’d change for me and that he loves me the first time ever maybe like 1-2 yrs ago he told me but I brushed it off now he’s all like how he wants to make love to me -___- right he just wants to make up for what he didn’t do when we first had sex. But I appreciate he loves me Cus I love him too. I dont know if I love him relationship wise but there is feelings if someone can always make me laugh and be happy around them “im sold” just wish he was foreal about cutting out wht he does us he has grown so much into an independent man. But guess I have to wait till my brothers wedding next year.. He set us up at his wedding together. Go figure but imglad they put me with him . I really do have love but I don’t know what love is to me love is what me and my son have. Other then that what these guys feel are lust. But anywho isn’t his messages so sweet he’s tryin to gass me up ;$
I'll answer 100% honest.
- Have you ever:
- 1) Self harmed?
- 2) Got into a real fight?
- 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
- 4) Tried to commit suicide?
- 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
- 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
- 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
- 8) Accused someone of using you?
- 9) Shoplifted?
- 10) Gotten drunk/high?
- 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
- 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
- (Right now) Are you:
- 13) Suicidal?
- 14) Bored?
- 15) Avoiding someone?
- 16) Avoiding some task?
- 17) Depressed?
- 18) Crying?
- 19) Annoyed with a friend?
- 20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
- Do you:
- 21) Get depressed easily?
- 22) Get jealous/envious easily?
- 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
- 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot?
- 25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
- 26) Go out drinking?
- 27) Smoke cigarettes?
- 28) Smoke weed?
- 29) Do any hard drugs?
- 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
- 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
- 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
- 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
- 34) Believe people deserve second chances?
- 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)
- 36) Think things will get better?
- 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
- 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
- Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
- 39) Long hair OR short hair?
- 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
- 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
- 42) Shy OR open?
- 43) Eyes OR body?
- 44) Religious OR non-religious?
- 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
- 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
- 47) Piercings OR no piercings?
- 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
- 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
- 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
- Would you:
- 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
- 52) Smoke weed?
- 53) Smoke cigarettes?
- 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
- 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
- 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
- 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
- 58) Join a band as a part time activity?
- 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
- 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
- 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
- 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
- 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
- 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
- 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people?
- 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
- 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
- 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
- 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
- 70) Sleep naked?
- You can only choose one:
- 71) Black or Orange?
- 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?
- 73) Cellphone or Computer?
- 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
- 75) Tumblr OR Friends?
- 76) Mac OR PC?
- 77) TV Shows OR Movies?
- 78) Old bands OR new Bands?
- 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
- 80) Reading OR Listening to music?
- 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.
- 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
- 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?
- 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice.
- 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.
- 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
- 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
- 88) Shoes OR Shirts?
- 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?
- 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.
- Almost over:
- 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest.
- 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
- 93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
- 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
- 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
- 96) Rather be the opposite gender?
- 97) What will you name your son/daughter?
- 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
- 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
- 100) What makes you a bad person in your mind?
Giggle giggle
Hey she asked so I told -___-
I said send me a random message this is what the bestie comes up wit -__- Lmaoo
I have this old friend. I’d never date him Cus I seen how he was when He brought girls over hed still flirt with me and used them so i never bothered but one night he slept over we had the quickest forgetful sex. Lol he was always mad about it Cus we never spoke of it again and I never seem him that type of way again but last night this morning actually around 5 am I thought about him and we texted up till 9 am just talkin about memories how much I missed him as a friend and then the feelings came on he told me he loved me before but I feel I didn’t say anything back so he never said anything like that again. But he said he genuinely loved me wtf does that mean anyway… But I told him I had always had love for him. He said things I never heard b4 a side I’ve never seen. I always thought of him as full of shit he tells that to all the girls. He knows
I always thinks he’s lying. But I love him he’s grown to be such a good man. We used to tease eachother so much. I will never forget him he always made me happy
I want my bro in law so bad I can’t understand it !! He just seems like everything I’d like but usually that doesn’t work
I’ve never had anyone truly deeply love me … I’d love that especially If I felt the same back.. I think we all deserve that kinda love once in our lives to feel special loved wanted not used. We all want it.
